IF THE ONLY PRAYER YOU SAID IN YOUR LIFE WAS "THANK YOU", THAT WOULD SUFFICE. ~Meister Eckhart

Saturday, March 1, 2008

03.01.08

Inner integrity is our basic nature — the effortless emotional wholeness that is our human birthright. When we tune into our direct experience as it actually is in the moment — not what our heads think about it, but what we actually experience — we find ourselves able to act in alignment with life, rather than wrestling with it.
Sounds simple? It is — and yet it's not. Most of us have years of practice in dissociating from our inner experience, or in struggling to control it. Somewhere along the way we started believing that life is too painful to fully accept and experience just as it is. Somehow we became convinced that we are too much, or too little. We started shutting down, judging ourselves (or others), criticizing ourselves (or others), filtering our raw experience through a subconscious tape loop of old voices. ~Kerry Moran
Today I am grateful...
  • that this morning I had a dream, the kind of dream I used to have and it be totally frustrating (inside the dream that is). This time the new place, disheveled and full of stuff that was just totally unusable, was being cleaned up by a host of people. They were all trying to make my place a nice place to live. I didn't let ugly or wrong attempts to make things better go, I voiced my opinion. Because I wanted them done to my aesthetic and I needed to stand up for myself. It was part of my role in the whole thing, to put things in order. I was also able to stand back and observe instead of in my old dreams of being so totally frustrated--those times I would want to tear my hair out. I woke before it ended, but I woke with a calm with which I would have not experienced after a dream like that in the past. Those were my type of nightmare...where nothing was able to be finished and everything was frustrating. So I reckon this whole thing sorta coincides with how I live these days and that is comforting.

6 comments:

sojo said...

Beautiful dream!

I have dreams these days full of fierce love. It must be the kind of love people feel for their children.

One of the unimaginable blessings of sobriety.

Pam said...

They are called maids Scott...let them do their job!!!
hee hee
Wishing you an excellent day mi amigo.

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Bill said...

If I was in your dream working, and you didn't pitch in to help, I hope you didn't mind when I walked away to my own dream.

Trailboss said...

Next time send those dream ppl over to my dreams because I don't care how it looks if someone else is willing to pick everything up!

Zane-nawwaa said...

Dreams are strange. Last night I dreamed I was in my office on the 95h floor and as I looked out I saw the trees at street level as we sank.