I now have one face instead of many masks. ~Keep It Simple
To me sobriety is a gift from God to me. If I drank, it would be giving the gift back. If you return a gift, the person takes it back, right? If God takes it back, I'm dead. ~ Alcoholics Anonymous, Fourth Edition p. 484
Today I am grateful...
- that Boston called me early yesterday to ask if I wanted a ride to the meeting. When I woke I was feeling chipper, but then the dizzies sat in and I declined the invitation. But she did bring turkey and dressing with cranberry sauce, mac and cheese and green beans. Exactly what I was craving. We sat for a while chatting but Bunny, who will not behave when we have company, got the better of us both and Boston scurried back out into the world. Boston is one of my great soul mates and I love her.
- that I found the first season of Project Runway Canada episodes on YouTube. Yea!
- that R came and picked me up for dinner at Mai's. The ride there was a little creepy, my equilibrium is not used to moving like that. We had an enjoyable meal with our usual friendly waiter, Hai. (We love to say "Hi. Hai!" And he always has the biggest smile.) As we were leaving, R pulled out of the parking place and seriously I felt like my brain slipped out of my head, my legs slipped out from under me and for a moment felt like I had completely dissipated--then I snapped back and felt like I was fast tumbling. The feeling was so foreign, I yelled out (if I remember) and he slowed down. It left shortly, but it was the oddest and scariest feeling of being out of control. I emailed my doctor and she replied to call her this morning at her clinic for some nausea medicine, but I am not nauseated, just get the dizzies if I move too quickly. Anyway, I was grateful for her response in such a timely manner, telling me she appreciated being able to answer my questions herself.
- about 11:00PM I let Bunny out in the yard to do his business. The day had been unseasonably warm and a bit muggy, but nice that it wasn't cold. The yard was dark and the outsides seemed like the seasons change time, it was breezy and cloudy. The trees were swaying gently and I sat in a chair and just let all that warm, soft feeling just sift through me. Just to be able to sit there, to be able to just enjoy the moment, seemed such a gift.
- for another five hour sleep cycle. With pleasant dreams of an old friend as we hung out. To wake this morning with a clear head, albeit a head that needs supervision.
- that I have a great desire to get back to meetings, which will happen when the time is right
- that you and I have the choice to make this a great day, as Pam says--stayin' in the day.
11 comments:
My sobriety is a God-given gift; one I could never have found on my own. I'm still astonished by it, and delighted. Thanks for the reminder that I need to be appreciative every day, to God and to everyone who helps me keep that gift.
Please take care of yourself. Vertigo is one of the worst feelings in the world. I hope you are on the mend soon.
(My head frequently needs supervision, even though I have not had surgery.)
I want to call you but am afraid that I'll wake you. Call me when you get this. I love you and love your gratitude lists. It was a pleasure to see you yesterday.
I guess I should cancel our plans for the carnival for tonight.
Stay in your day ...
I think it is so important to take some time to yourself each day to reflect back on the things you are grateful for in life.
Many of us are not subjected to the many cruelties that life has to offer use. We are in the land of the free, America. To make note of one of the basic things that I am grateful for; I recently saw the movie Blood Diamond and i must say that it made me step back and thank god that i was not subjected to a lifestyle similar to that of the children in that movie. The movie is a real eye opener. Although it is glorified, there is still some truth to that genocide that occurs in Darfur, throughout the movie. There is a lot that many of us have to be grateful for that we over look on a daily basis.
Hello-I came across your blog quite accidently. Thank goodness. Your openess, honesty and grateful attitude has made your own life seem of high quality no matter the adversity. And by sharing your sense of gratitude, it has made a good difference in my own present moment, thank you! Hoping for your return of good health soon, take care-
sobriety must be god given------for it was the only time i truly felt alive.Being one who has hands on experince in all aspects of the drug game( though that title is not a fitting one for a biz----ness founded on blood shed and corruption)using,selling etc,I fall off as we all do.That is a part of being human.as long as we realize our errors and fight as hard as possible to not revist our ways of old.we prosper.
I am sorry you are going through that, but I am glad you are taking care of your self. I get verigo really bad sometimes, but what you describe is like 20times harder- I am glad you hvae good people around you (((HUGS))) have a great day Scotty
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A good example set you you!! rock on!
I'm just curious as to what inspired the title of your blog?
I came across your site and love it. It is so nice to know some people take the time to think of everything they are grateful for in their day.
God Bless!
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