IF THE ONLY PRAYER YOU SAID IN YOUR LIFE WAS "THANK YOU", THAT WOULD SUFFICE. ~Meister Eckhart

Thursday, August 12, 2010

08.12.10

When I look back at the life I had when I was drinking and using, it was not a pretty picture. There were the repeated failures, the letting people down, the lies, the time in jail and hospitals. None of these things made my addiction pretty. Sure there were the good times; but when I look back honestly, I wonder how I ever could have wanted this life. I know now that it was not the life I truly wanted. I just wanted a good time.

But I am different. I cannot process alcohol or drugs in my system the same way other people do. I know people that drink normally, and I did not drink like they do. In the program of AA I have learned that nothing I could do could change the way I respond to alcohol or drugs. Physically, psychologically and emotionally I respond differently and negatively to my drugs of choice. I am an addict, and I now have a choice to make. ~Wisdom for Today

9 comments:

Susan Deborah said...

I am glad to see a post dear Scott. Hope you have been well and so is your art.
The decision you made is for a purpose and I am happy you made it and are sticking to it.

Blessing and joy always,
Susan

dAAve said...

Good morning Scotty. Nice to see ewe.

Bill said...

Just this morning I was thinking of my old way of coping with life, and the illusion of good times. Now I realize that laughter is not always an indication of happiness.

Cindy said...

succinct! and true! ty

Syd said...

It is not pretty for the alcoholic or anyone around them. Thanks Scott.

that girl said...

well said.

Scott said...

so grateful for a choice today!

Bobby said...

Wow....You are doing fabulous. Many times when we have to actually look at the wreckage of our past it takes us down a spiral that is agonizing. Learning from your addicted history rather than letting it destroy you further is admirable. Your blog sounds healthy. It sounds like you forgive yourself and are not letting guilt and regret over your mistakes prompt you to make more of the same.

Todd HellsKitchen said...

Here's to better times! (He says toasting with a glass of pomegranite juice!)