12.28.09

If you walk with lame men you will soon limp yourself. ~Seaman McManus

Today I am grateful…

• that yesterday’s low blood sugar attack was abated with Mexican food
• that when we were in the book store yesterday I checked the Post Secret books. Inside two were secrets placed by anonymous people. One said “You and I are connected.” The other was written by a woman who lost her love, it told of how she puts his ring on and wonders.
• that today I have a different experience of this odd time between holidays. In my drinking days I would be in the midst of one long binge. Days and nights blurring together. The world a bay.
• that a friendly, understanding voice is just a phone call away, a click of the keyboard, a meeting close by
• to have what i need for this day

                                         Suicide Bunny

As the sore tooth draws our tongue, so do rejections, affronts, painful criticisms, both past and present draw our minds. We court self-pity, both loving and hating it. But we can change this pattern. First we must decide we are ready to do so. The program tells us we must become "entirely ready." And then we must ask to have this shortcoming removed.
The desire to dwell on the injustices of our lives becomes habitual. It takes hours of our time. It influences our perceptions of all other experiences. We have to be willing to replace that time-consuming activity with one that's good and healthy.
We must be prepared for all of life to change. Our overriding self-pity has so tarnished our perceptions that we may never have sensed all the good that life daily offers. How often we see the glass as half-empty rather than half-full!
A new set of experiences awaits me today. And I can perceive them unfettered by the memories of the painful past. Self-pity need not cage me, today. ~Each Day a New Beginning