IF THE ONLY PRAYER YOU SAID IN YOUR LIFE WAS "THANK YOU", THAT WOULD SUFFICE. ~Meister Eckhart

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

09.08.09

When obstacles block your path, be sure that you're carrying a dream that will show you the view from a higher perspective. ~Ralph Marston
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Today I am grateful...
  • for a truly great weekend of relaxing, meetings, time with me and Bunny, painting, time with friends, a picnic in the park topped off with a Beginner's meeting with the topic "Why do you keep coming back?"
  • that I have been a little bit fretful over dropping my land line. Today it's gone so I can either fret or restore it. I think I will choose to not fret.
  • the more you write and say 'fret' the wronger it feels
  • for the peace of having what I want and wanting what I have
  • for my host of friends and loved ones
  • for the gift of time and all its healing properties

I lied to impress. I lied to hide my guilt and shame. I lied to cover my mistakes. I lied to bridge the silence. I lied to fantasize. I lied to hurt and destroy. I lied to hide the real me. Then I lied to cover the lies. Then I lied to cover the lies I told to cover the original lies! So it went on. Endless. Exhausting. Meaningless. A part of me always loathed the lies I told. Then I grew to hate myself. ~Fr Leo

9 comments:

Mary Christine said...

Yeah, but, it is 09.08.09.

Scott W said...

Ack! I noticed this morning that tomorrow is 09.09.09. I guess I mistyped. Thanks.

Elizabeth Mahlou said...

I have always considered telling the truth easier. That way I don't have to remember what I made up.

Tall Kay said...

Such a vivid reminder of the self-loathing that came from all the lies and hiding and pretending. There is such freedom in the truth.

Carol said...

Have you seen Fr Leo's cooking show?

Pam said...

It's 09-09-09 Scott...how does that make you feel?
zeronine/zeronine/zeronine
9/9/9

Boston said...

wonderful things to be grateful about today!

Syd said...

It sounds as if you had a really good weekend. Nothing better than having time with a dog, friends, relaxing, and food.

dailypiglet said...

i'm a fret from way back, reckon it'll always be with me, but it's betta than it usta be.

is there a short kay to go with tall kay?