Hurry and busyness are forms of self-will. Deluded by an exaggerated sense of our own importance, we deem it crucial to perform all tasks and activities according to our personal schedule. Impatient with traffic tie-ups, other people's slowness, or unavoidable delays, we make ourselves tense and miserable by our refusal to accept life as it comes. ~Food for Thought
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Today I am grateful...
- for the relief of calling another alcoholic to help me get through my wonkiness
- for the Beginners meeting last night. It was one of those times I really did not want to be sitting there discussing the first step again. But as I sat with my decision to stay put the message of hope and what the program of AA has given to me came through loud and clear. By the end of the meeting I was teary and emotional and entirely grateful for what I have been given. Someone I used to hang out with was there and took a desire chip. It took me a few minutes to remember why he was so familiar. He had alcohol on his breath, but he had a brand new Big Book and a 12&12 under his arm as he left.
- that life as I know it today is different than the life I used to know
- that yesterday phase 1 of my week's dental stuff is over, today I go to the oral surgeon
[W]hat comes to us alone may be garbled by our own rationalization and wishful thinking. The benefit of talking to another person is that we can get his direct comment and counsel on our situation. . . ~Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions
13 comments:
I got emotional reading about your experience last night.
I'm on a beginngers panel & leave with so much gratitude every time.
As good as it gets is good enough for today - nice...
Dental stuff is awful. I don't guess anyone likes it. I'm glad you reached out for help. That is a good thing.
I am so grateful that you continue to help newcomers. Its what we need is to see people with some time. To understand that it works and we can do it too!!!
Wonkiness?
It is a design for living that works in rough going. As Bill would say.
If you need "L" to drive the get away car from your Oral Surgeon just let me know. Her rates are low.
I needed to read the Food for Thought today. My impatience needs to be put on a back burner more and more often. (Hugs)Indigo
I hope that the fellow with the desire chip continues to have the desire to stay sober. Step One is a great step. I really like beginners, especially those that hear something.
I wish I had read this before I went to the grocery store and had a major impatience attack.
Glad your wobbliness and wonkiness is passing.
Thank you for writing your blog, Scott. Good luck with the dental stuff. Deb
That is some excellent Food for Thought. I hope I can digest it before I get too busy.
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