This is one of those mornings when I do not have the usual interest in posting here. It happens more and more but I keep posting daily because I have made that commitment to myself. And because I enjoy going to several recovery blogs on a daily basis. I am grateful to those who post daily. Pam made reference to this today and she and I have spoken to each other about it in the past.
At 3:33 this morning I woke because my bladder was demanding a walk across the apartment. Then Rudra woke me with lightening and attendant thunder at 4:44. So I made coffee, let Bunny out to pee before the rains started, watched the weather report and surfed the Internet. About 6AM I checked in on Mary Christine, Pam and Dave. I count on them posting daily.
I don't mind waking early when I have the luxury of returning to bed--which I did. It was still dark and so I turned off all the lights and pulled the curtain over the door. Bunny was already back under the covers when I snuggled in and took an early morning nap.
On television the crowd is leaving the memorial for Princess Diana. I can't believe it has been ten years since I was sitting in the living room with Brandon, drinking tequila, when we heard the news. It was so surreal--first the news of the crash, then the news of her death. Brandon was crying and got on the phone to his mom. We were glued to the TV all that night and we got really drunk. Her death was not cause for getting drunk, it was what I did daily. Today there may be something that keeps me glued to the TV for hours at a time, but those are few and far apart. But there is nothing that, today, would make me want to get really drunk. Or a little drunk. Or even take a sip of some alcoholic beverage.
Today I am grateful...
- that my Higher Power keeps me sober one day at a time
- for the replacement of my new lenses--I gave them four weeks--hopefully now I can read without tipping my glasses upwards
- for those who relapse and make it back, so I don't have to do the research myself
- that I am often repelled by what fascinates the general public
- to many groups of AA as spiritual entities, which I can fall into for support at any time (in Houston there are more than 2000 meetings of AA each week)
4 comments:
Seems to me you had a lot to write about. And as ALWAYS, I got something positive from reading it.
Dear Scott,
I always go to your Blog first. I enjoy seeing what you post.
Please don't stop.
I look forward to your blog daily.
Love to you.
Most mornings I get up and can't think of anything to post, but so many of us seem to have made this "commitment" to do so. Let's track this "commitment dude" down and whip his ass.
I love having so many AA groups and meetings to choose from!
I love to get up at 3:00am on Saturdays, then take a nap at 5:30am.....cause I'm just floopy like that.
our blogs..aren't they something special?No matter what we share on days like this ScottW ..you still paint a picture of hope and healthy living.
you rock dude.
so does bunny xo
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