IF THE ONLY PRAYER YOU SAID IN YOUR LIFE WAS "THANK YOU", THAT WOULD SUFFICE. ~Meister Eckhart

Monday, July 16, 2007

07.16.07

Years of dependency on alcohol as a chemical mood-changer deprived me of the capability to interact emotionally with my fellows. I thought I had to be self-sufficient, self-reliant, and self-motivated in a world of unreliable people. Finally I lost my self-respect and was left with dependency, lacking any ability to trust myself or to believe in anything. ~Daily Reflections
Today I am grateful...
  • to not consider myself a failure
  • that I have been given enough time for each day
  • that I was not the man I observed Saturday (while at the stop light beside King Kole Liquors) who had to be helped to his truck by the store owner
  • for early morning laughter
  • that today sobriety gives me a freedom I could never have glimpsed in my previous life
Our program has no heroes. It has many fine, spiritual people. . . but no heroes. ~Keep It Simple
My life has been nothing but a failure. ~Claude Monet I am a failure so long as I consider myself a failure. I am what I create in my life. God requires my cooperation to make miracles in my life. My decision to listen to those who had achieved sobriety provided the seeds for my recovery today. I wonder if Claude Monet was an alcoholic who never heard the words of hope?

6 comments:

Pam said...

I have to agree with every single line of your post today! I am very glad that I am given "enough" time each day...the expressiong "there's not enough hours in the day"...bothers me.
enjoy your monday, sugar!

peanut said...

Dear Scott,
I look forward to your entries every day.

Thank you for your wisdom. Your recovery. Your friendship.

Have a delightful day.

Shannon said...

me too Scott! and I soo get the daily reflections
happy monday

Mary Christine said...

Claude Monet thought he was a failure? Sheesh! We humans are nuts!

One Drunk to Another said...

I recently saw two original Monet pieces at the Columbus Museum of art. I don't think he was a failure -- quite the contrary! I wish I could have told him. Or that he could have read the thousands of books that talk about his brilliance. However, the piece I saw was in an exhibit of the few Degas impressionist pieces and I'm pretty sure I read there that Degas told Monet that his stuff was a little frivolous. I say we blame it on him. Degas was probably an alcoholic too. I'd have liked to be at THAT meeting!

Scott W said...

Suzanne, you are probably right. Degas loved the ballet and that werid lighting.

Artists often doubt themselves.