I am up early after waking from a frustrating dream where I could not get to a destination. Endless attempts to find my way back. I woke tense and not well rested. I used to have dreams like this all the time when I was drinking.
This is the first year I have had to face tax time as a self-employed individual. My biggest fears used to be financial and I am sure these dreams are related to this same character defect. I have been seriously attempting to turn over to my Higher Power these fears by being grateful that I will be provided for. This has been an area of huge growth over the past 3 1/2 years. I have developed a much stronger faith and trust, based on 52+ years of experience of being cared for by a power greater than me.
As I woke this morning I immediately gave thanks for this day and for keeping me sober within it. I also turned over any fears. I know from experience these fears will present themselves the next few days and I will have many chances to let them go.
I am grateful today for all I have and all that is to come. I am also grateful for the sound of the pouring rain and that we got up early enough for Bunny to make two trips outside. We are under severe thunderstorm warnings so I need to wrap this up and get it published.
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I just finished putting my taxation fears aside and completing them myself. Not so much fun, but it wasn't nearly as bad as I had imagined it might be. I hope the same holds true for you, my friend! And furthermore, amy your galoshes have no holes!
peace to you, sir!
Taxes are done and waiting for me to write the check and send it in. The fears are about letting go of my nest egg to pay them.
Hi, just to say hi. Your blog is getting to be like the paper to me-
I have not completed my day w/o reading it..
well open your window a crack and listen, hopefully it will take you adn Bunny off to a peaceful restful dreamland :)
Looking forward to Easter, Bunny.
You're my daddy.
JJ
hehehe
while I was "out there" I didn't even file tax returns for 8 years. Sooo much wreckage I had to clean up. I still hate writing that check, but I'm so glad I'm sober and do it.
I have become so used to living in (almost) poverty that I rarely freak over money stuff any more! It seemed that when I was still drinking/using that was all I thought about- gotta get more, gotta have $ to pay for it...
Today I can honestly say I have everything I need and then some!
HUGS
Tax day is (almost) enough to make a Republican out of me. But only once a year for a nano second...
You are so precious Scott...and I don't even know why I got that feeling about you....reading about taxes and stuff....but I just did.
The thunder was fabulous last night wasn't it?
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