01.10.07

The beauty and the power of AA lies in identification. No one in AA ever told me what I was. If you try to tell me I'm an alcoholic or I'm this or that, I just have automatic knee-jerk reaction defense mechanisms that come into play and I just shut you out. You can't get to me that way. But in AA, I'd be sitting at the back of the room and you'd be talking about yourself, so my defenses are down, and I start to identify. - Bob D.

Today I am grateful...

• that last night on www.live365.com radio I found the Polysuper Radioshow! OMG! I was dancing around all night! Old Michael Jackson, Donna Summer, new and old Pet Shop Boys! Lots of old and new dance music and it just makes me happy, happy, happy! (If that's not your cup o' tea, live365 has over a thousand radio stations that are free, alls you have to do is register) I passed it on to Matt and he was a Maniac this morning.
• that the ride to jury duty was fun, got to ride on the train for the first time and it delivered me to the front door of the jury assembly building. It was packed, tiny seats like airplanes and stiflingly hot! Ugh, I thought I was gonna get sick, the heat made me so nauseous. But jury panel after jury panel was called and my number never came up. They let us go at 11:15. It was a gorgeous day, cool and bright and crystal clear skies.
• that I was comfortable sitting in that mass of humanity and not having a desire to chat up anyone. I was content to just sit there and wait it out as an observer. The trio in front of me let everyone in on their lives in Tomball. One husband is a kindergarten through fourth grade teacher, one sister has leukemia. It was comical when one's mother called and needed a phone number so she reached into her purse and pulled out another phone, accessed the address book and got the number while her neighbor held her Chik-Fil-A Styrofoam cup, which will eventually find its way to a landfill where it will reside for hundreds of years alongside other containers that we deem necessary so we can have a life of convenience.
• that I have not lost my cool dealing with Blogger. But I really am over having to log in by going through that first page Blogger makes you sign in on, so I just hit enter then it tells me I didn't do it correctly and finally gives you the area to log into the NEW Blogger. Then the fucker won't remember you next visit. And those damned windows that ask if you want to display the secure and non secure items. Aarrrggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!! And now spellcheck seems to have died. Here I will use the most passive/aggressive answer ever: Whatever!

Learn to love giving, and your life will be blessed. Learn to love being thankful, and you'll know real abundance. Learn to love the ordinary moments, and you'll find each day filled with warm golden treasures. Learn to love simply being, and you'll rise to a whole new level of awareness. Learn to love something about each day, and your days will bring rich fulfillment. Learn to love, and you'll know how to live. ~Ralph Marston

You, who made the different, also created the unity; help me find both in my life. ~Father Leo