10.22.05

Yesterday was a full one. I spent the day with K chatting about business, what's ahead and sobriety. I did manage to squeeze in a noon meeting. I met William, the West Highland Terrier and Spencer, the black mixed breed that work with their moms at the studio. Picked up R and met D at Mo Mong for dinner, afterwards R and I watched TiVOed game shows. I got home about 9 and in the mail were two cards, both condolences. One was from two old friends and one was from one new friend. Both touched my heart deeply and brought up an intense longing to hold Chester in my arms again.

I checked my emails and read my daily blogs and then just sat here really tired. I opened up my photo files and searched for the group I took of Chester on Oct. 3, two days before he got his wings. And my heart hurt. Since he left I have been so extremely grateful for the sixteen years we had together and the tears have been there off and on. This was different, this came up from so deep inside that I was racked with sobs and this funny little crying sound. This is grief in its finest form. Eventually time will eclipse the pain and I will be able to let a new little soul into my life, but now comfort and pain are holding hands. It's part of being a responsible pet owner and it is an honor to have been the companion of such a sweet and innocent soul.

I love and miss you, Booger.


As Ben wrote in his card, "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."