After a good eight hours of z's and having to get up only twice to deurinize I feel like someone has thumped me in the head. The bed covers were heavily luxurious and the STA temperature was perfect. I have never been one to wake up all bright and shiny, or is that bushy tailed? Whichever, it's gonna take some major coffee items to get me going. Looks like it will be beautiful outside today and I have a list of things to check off.
Those Eggland's Best egg commercials with those Stepford people really scare me.
Today I am grateful...
- for another show of strength and hope at yesterday's first step meeting. When someone new comes in it mirrors back to us the first meeting we attended--the pain, the shame, the desperation.
- that during those meetings people are eager to share because we want the newcomer to feel welcomed and truly want them to achieve sobriety
- that this week at the noon meeting we had four people pick up desire chips
- for those who keep coming back
- that I can now hold close to me one thing I could not grasp the first time around...that this is a WE program and I do not have to be or do alone anymore. Of course the idea that I had to get involved with you scared the hell out of me.
- that Dennis R kept driving home to me the idea that it's a WE program
- that the Great Wall of Scott is crumbling
- that tonight I have the chance to work the membership table with the Punster
- that Wade picked up his six month chip...way to go Wade!!!!!
1 comment:
I had pain, but not shame at being an alcoholic. That is just who I am. I wasn't desperate until 3months into the program and still drinking. When I hit my bottom, I was MORE than desperate. It was life or death at that moment. I have no more shame than a cancer patient should have. And since I AM an alcoholic, I am grateful that I finally found AA and its way of life. What a wonderful way for an alcoholic to live. There should be non-alcoholic meetings for "normal" people. Some might say they do have those already - church. But organized religion is SHAME-BASED. They tell the population that if a person is not like them, God will condemn them to hell. Go for it, Billy Graham, Jerry Falwell, Jimmy Swaggart and the hundreds of the others who preach from their mighty thrones. When I go to MY heaven, I will be shocked when I see you there, but MY God allows everyone in without judging them. OMG, how did I get started on this shit?
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